Living with Depression

My body aches, has zero energy and is just so tired I feel like I could sleep forever. Unable to focus and barely could drag myself out of bed to eat, drink or go to the bathroom. No wanting to hang out with friends, missing school and work because I am too physically tired to drag myself out of my bed or dark hole.

Everybody has bad days but dealing with depression is an everyday struggle. It’s definitely true that some days are worse than others, but I’ve learned to manage it, to become aware of my symptoms, my triggers, and to remain in control.

However, this has not always been the case. It was not until I understood what was going on inside and the relationship between my body and mind. Awareness is the key to prevention and that is why I’d like to share with you my story and what has helped me because I don’t want anyone else to feel the way I have. The feelings of isolation and hopelessness.

The first big step for me was realizing and accepting that I was mentally unwell. It took me a long time to do this and figure it out. I felt physically ill and would go to the doctor with my symptoms to get bloodwork done and to be told it must be I’m not sleeping well or it was a viral thing. Even the doctor at first didn’t recognize that what I was actually experiencing was depression.

Once diagnosed I was able to find ways to help me stay well. Through taking time out for just me and through cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT).

CBT helped me understand what was causing my depression and that isolating myself and wallowing in self-pity was only making me feel worse. Changing my attitude and adopting a positive outlook on life was life-changing.

I hope my story helps someone so they know they are not alone.